"are you ok?"

Honestly, what kind of stupid question is that?
lets just analyse this shall we?

Assume my reply is the truth : "NO."
what follows next? you fret, thinking,

o dear, what am i suppose to do?
its been months already, why hasn't he gotten over it?
why is he putting me in a spot?
i don't know him that well, why does he want me to say?

"O... im sorry to hear that, is there anything i can do? you want to talk about it?"

what am i going to say!?!?!?
hmm, actually i cant talk for long, i got to rush off soon, got meeting at YIH...
PLS... someone come over so that it wont be too awkward...
i shouldn't have asked him in the first place....

what you are expecting to hear is the "model" answer:
"o, i am fine, thanks for asking."

ok. hmm, what should i have for lunch? KFC? but that will bring out pimples...
wah, i just dun noe how to do the tutorial. like that i cannot get A for my module liao,
then my dad wont buy me the BMW, only get the toyota. How? so unfair.... and it goes on and on.

so do the both of us a favour, dun ask the question..

wounds

people say that pain is a good thing. it tells you that you are still alive. dont know about you, but i avoid pain whenever possible, especially the intangible pains. imagine you are shot in the arm, the wound burns, pain lancing up your arm. fire burns around the wound, clouding your mind in a torrent of electrical impulses that demands your immediate attention to the injury. now supposedly, you can shut off the pain receptors in your arm, leaving behind a blissful numbness where there was once agony. as the memory of the malady fades, you begin to return to your normal state of being, doing your chores, back to your everyday life. all the while the wound festers, spreading its insidious tendrils of infection. like all untreated wounds, the foulness spreads, inhibiting natural healthy growth. now presume yet again, the brain synapses are reconnected, the conduit for communication between arm and brain is reestablished. what do you think happens?

a torrent of information floods in. the sensory deluge saturating the brain, causing temporal disorientation. the overload sends you reeling, gasping for air as you feel the air driven out of you. the agony is too almost too much to bear. so what do you do now? do you grit your teeth and bear the pain, slowly begin the painful process of healing and mending, or do you continue to block out the pain, knowing that if left alone, the wound will continue to spread, wrecking more havoc to the once healthy body.

eyrie

been ages since i've put anything up here.
partly due to competitions, planning for camp, planning for mass swim...
sigh...
anyway, here are pics i took from turkey long ago,
the pattern and colour caught my eye..

massswim

been a while since i blogged.. or added pics... busy with organising camp and training.. anyway, here are the preliminary poster designs for the mass swim.. photoshoping made me abit happier...
like the orange... finally able to do this effect!!!! select the area u want to black and white... then ctrl + shift + U!!! whoo hoo!

Proust

"neither love nor its more noble cousin, friendship, ever survive the entropy blades of jealousy, boredom, familiarity, and egotism..."

- Orphu of Io

hmm... such a meloncholic and depressing statement... true to some extent though... but i have more faith in love ( or isit naiveness?? ) ...

back to black (and white)

enuff colour.. back to black and white. adjusted the contrast and brightness a bit though. was a cloudy day, no strong sunlight. notice puay yong is not in the centre of the pic, she's at the bottom third. like that way her paddles stand out, with the white decals.

e - lizard - beth

i first set eyes on her the 1st day we reached darwin. i didnt think abt her after that, figuring that some one better would come along the next few days. but that brief attraction lingered in my mind the next few days. everytime the wind blew, she wispered her name in my ear. everytime i saw couples at the beach, my mind wandered back to her. O, the joy! when i finally went back, and there she was waiting patiently for me.

ever since we came back from darwin, she has been standing guard in my room, never complaining, silently, meekly, waiting for me...

花

this is one of my all time favourite songs (introduced by wing)... Hana by orange range. i tell u, even thought the song is in jap, but once u read the chinese translation... ... ... its the kind of song u want to sing to ur girlfriend... its even better than 芳文山's lyrics!

像花瓣一樣地散落之中
與你相遇的奇蹟就像作夢那般
相愛 爭吵
兩人一起渡過了各種難關
就算投胎轉世
我也要變成在你身旁的花朵

在我正上方的太陽會永遠的存在吧
我會一直守護著你那哭泣 微笑 生氣的表情吧
如果有一天這全部都會消失的話
那就應該更感謝兩人的相遇
那天 那時 那個地方的奇蹟
會再一次產生新的軌跡吧
因為愛而變得更堅強
因為相信所以能突破一切
你所遺留下來的東西如今在胸前不會失去光輝
想著幸福就能邂逅
我的笑臉就能換回
抱著「謝謝」溢出的心情邁向前進的路程

像花瓣一樣地散落之中
與你相遇的奇蹟就像作夢那般
相愛 爭吵
兩人一起渡過了各種難關
就算投胎轉世我也想要與你重逢
像花瓣一樣地散落的事
在這個世界全部都接受吧
你為我所遺留下來的東西叫做 "現在" 的現實寶物
因此我盡全力的活著成為花朵

花為什麼會枯萎呢
鳥為什麼能飛翔呢
風為什麼會吹拂呢
月亮為什麼能明亮的照耀呢
為何我會在這裡呢
為何你會在這裡呢
為何會和你相遇呢
和你相遇那就是命運啊

像花瓣一樣地散落之中
與你相遇的奇蹟就像作夢那般
相愛 爭吵
兩人一起渡過了各種難關
就算投胎轉世我也想要與你重逢
像花瓣一樣地散落的事
在這個世界全部都接受吧
你為我所遺留下來的東西叫做 "現在" 的現實寶物
因此我盡全力的活著成為花朵

雨後彩虹架設 從青色暴風雨中所產生的光芒
重要的東西在這裡沒有被動搖
注意到了所謂的“愛”
還能走吧？因為都可以看見了
“思念”超越了時空永遠的迴響著
你的喜悅 你的傷痛 你的全部啊
來吧 盛開的更多更多更多

haha.. i noe some ppl wont appreciate the song.. but here are the youtube links,

live - http://youtube.com/watch?v=SoNpu5BG2uU&mode=related&search=
MV - http://youtube.com/watch?v=ArdppGzM84k (with english sub)

such a simple and touching song that there really isnt any need for fancy lighting or fireworks
a song that i will definitely sing to my gf.. haha

wong fujie in action!

here we have wong fujie in action at the arafura games! (all saey.... only.. lol)

blogger sux!! shrink my 'panaromic' picture till sooooooo small!!! sianz. i am very sorry, but pls click the the pic above to see it better...

taken at high shutter speed, can see him grabbing the half filled mannikin WITHOUT a torpedo tube. WTH??? wong fuji, wat are u doing!??!?!?!?!?! see lah.. TRYING to act pro, (look quite zai on camera rite?) but as all lifesavers can tell, he juz malu - ed himself... big time. haha..... hope fujie doesnt read the blog..

if i kissed you...

If I kissed you
Would fireworks fly
Woud angels sing with lollipops
Would dinosaurs cry
Would babies all gurgle in laughter and surprise
If I kissed you...?

pink dolphins

today's training was wierd..... i suddenly was gripped in the throes of a phobia.. i was sooooo scared i couldnt breathe.
even simple things like staying underwater for 10 secs cause my body to scream out for air and i juz have to surface, gulping mouthfuls of sweet evening air. i dunno y, i juz start to panic when i have to dive underwater to pick up a mannikin or even juz to swim under the obstacles.. i juz have to get over this... i mean, other trgs im totally fine, then todae i juz start to sieze up.. seeing the wall looming ahead during 尊严, i can feel the tendrils of fear snaking out and start to claw into my mind, as if they want to pull me into a dark abyss... okok, i noe its very 夸张 , but thats wat a phobia feels like!

*尊严/rescue medly - swim 50m, dive underwater 17.5m without surfacing, pick up mannikin and swim the rest of the 37.5m *

i have this hypothesis on the sudden emergence of the 'phobia'. yesterday nite, i was watching discovery channel and they had a feature on dolphins and y they attack ppl. maybe thats the reason, im subconciously fearful of pink dolphins lurking under the waters of the NUS pool, waiting to attack me! squeak-- roar!



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wat a load of crap....

arafura

feeling moody todae... juz pics

lonely gal

i managed to unearth some pictures i took for a video last year... abt tzuqun playing a lonely JC gal in the video.. hahahahahahaha... the black and white makes her seem sad and her world is without colour.. it was sooooo fun taking the photos... but she will most proby KILL me if she sees that i put her picture here.. lol... her bf alvin may come and whack me oso.. hehe.. but i dun care!
(see how long they take to find out).


scenes were taken at ACJC. the pool shot on the left is nicer in colour.. maybe next time.

if u look at the top picture, the subject (tzuqun) is not in the centre of the pic. of to the left with her looking to the right, muz leave some space for her eyes to look at.. and the lines on the track sorta pulls the viewers attention to the right, to where she is looking at.. so yah, 2 pts, avoid putting ur subject smack in the centre of the pic, and always leave more space in the direction of where the person is looking at. o, make sure ur frame dun truncate the person (cut him off), i left some space on the left of her and the top of her head.

depth of field

o.......... this picture makes me go all fuzzy...... zZzZzZzZzZ...
an example of depth of field. the centre (where the focus was) is sharp, while the rest of the frame is all blurred. this is achieved using a marco lens (short focal length) and manual focussing..
very similar to ur physics experiment in abt the pinhole camera.. larger aperture, more light goes in, more overlapping of images.. hence the blurring. if u have a smaller aperture (hole for light to go thru), u only get one image froming on ur 'film', resulting in one sharp image

枫

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛火温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
被风掠过像你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却唤不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
爱深透了地面
我要的只是你在我生边。。。

i have no idea wat this means...

potraits

well, decided to include some basic photo composition tips in my blog... not say that i am a good photographer or that i take good photos, but hope ppl can pick up some basic skills (so that when ppl help me take photos of me, it wont be all weird and all.. haha)

i'll start of with simple (but constantly overlooked) stuff : frame orientation.
the pic below is in potrait orientation. the other (very commonly used orientation is landscape)

alot of ppl ALWAYS use landscape... as u can tell from my past posts, i kinda have a moderate dislike of landscape... then u ask , wat can the potrait orientation be used for?? the obvious answer is: TO TAKE POTRAITS OF PPL !!! DUH! (the name suggest ppl should take shots of ppl in this orientation mah, but all lazy to tilt the camera)... the difference with a potrait shot is it can capture more of a person in a shot. because we are built vertically more than horizontally, by taking potrait, the person will occupy a greater % of space of the frame (head to abt mid torso usually?) ... as compared to landscape, u only get the face, leaving alot of free space (= more backgrd clutter).. again, not say that i am a pro / zai kia, but i think ppl should experiment more with potrait orientation rather that holding the camera so that u can read the words on the menu rite while u take a picture.

next up will be abt usage of space in a frame.... and how to 'frame' ur shots with space.. eheh... sounds cheem.. lol

*this was taken in the early morning, watching sunrise in darwin... the "models" look energetic, but actually all 4 bei nuah from the lack of slp :)

where'd you go, i miss you so
seems like its been forever... since you've been gone...

where'd you go, i miss you so
seems like its been forever... since you've been gone...







please come back home...

fireworks

well, here are 2 fireworks shots taken seperately (both in potrait). one was taken during NDP last year while the one on the right was taken at arafura closing ceremony.... the one on the right is more "magnificant", but the one of the left brings out more 气氛... its cos i think fireworks cannot be taken alone... has to be taken with part of the event to bring out its spectacle and how it lends excitement to the event... well, for u to compare which one evokes more "feeling".. (o, and fireworks should never be in black and white.. y hide all the nice colours???)*one last shot of a landscape fireworks...

conventions

i defied all photography conventions to get this shot... rule of thirds... never put ur subject in centre, never put ur horizon at exactly half of the frame etc... haha.. but photography is abt 突破, abt breaking the rules rite??? to see the wonder in everyday things... everyone thinks that u have to go overseas to get good pics... not true!! that only works cos u are seeing everything for the first time... but there are tonnes of good shots in where we live too!

*lurve the lens flare~!... hehe. muz find out how to get it....